Say what you want to say

Well, hello there. Surprised yet? Yes, I'm back. But I'm still not going to overrule the chances of me disappearing again. My blog is sadly almost dead, don't you think? The reasons being my busy life, and also my laziness. Over time, I have so much to say, that in the end it all seems so overwhelming and I end up not saying anything. Sorry for cheating by putting pictures and videos, or fragmented poems and paragraphs. Hahaha, I haven't written a 'real' post since August!

So what better way to get me started than a tag? Generally, I hate doing tags... but this one seemed interesting enough.
Here goes nothing.

1) List 20 things that you want to say to people, but never will.
2) Don’t say who they are.
3) Never discuss it again.

one. I truly, truly, miss us.

two. Sometimes that tone of voice really hurts me. It really is like what other people say, but that's just the way you are so I'm okay with it, friend. But why can't you just take me the way I am?

three. I love you more than anyone would ever know. And yes, I am talking about you, even if you don't think I am.

four. I wish you would stop complaining about him. That's one thing I don't want to be like.

five. You would never be reading this. But I miss the old you. What happened? I wish we kept in touch more.

six. I think you are a self-centered and self-important person. No, we don't want to hear it all.

seven. I know what your inner turmoils are, if only vaguely. We never ever ever talk about this stuff, I know. But after all these years, don't you think we can read each other? And no, I wasn't talking about reading literally.

eight. You have really white teeth. XD

nine. When listening to you, there are two emotions. One of admiration. Another of jealousy. Not like you would care.

ten. Sometimes I imagine I was in your place. My life is so boring compared to yours.

eleven. Can you please just shut up? You need anger management.

twelve. I think you are gonna save the world. I am not kidding.

thirteen. I'm scared.

fourteen. I wish I was in your thoughts more often. Because sometimes I feel like a ghost.

fifteen. Oi. Are you leading a double life?

sixteen. Did you really mean what you said? I really don't know! I imagine you did, but I hope you didn't. But either way, thanks A LOT (being sarcastic here).

seventeen. I don't know what we'll do without you. Like, seriously. What am I gonna do??

eighteen. I know what you did! Don't repeat it, you don't have any reasons to.

nineteen. I know it was your time, you were not meant to be. But are you the reason why sometimes our table feels so empty? I'm not haunted, I just wonder. Wallahu'alam.

twenty. I'm sorry.


That was tough. It took me almost an hour! I guess I don't have much repressed anger. I'm not tagging anyone, but if you want to do this, feel free.

Now I can't wait to write new posts so this one would get off the main page and disappear into the archives. It's kind of scary.




p/s: oh yeah and I updated lobo.audition, you music lovers.